Everyone has numerous negative experiences when it comes to talking about Love.. For it takes going through all of the bad to finally get to the good.. I try my hardest to not let my previous relationships (or lack there of) get me down.. I try my hardest to remind myself of this fact, despite having been just used and discarded by numerous girls..
It's almost as if there is a sign on my forehead, saying "Come lie to me about having a boyfriend.." I almost don't know what's worse: being cheated on, or being used to cheat with.. When I first hooked up with a girl in a relationship, I felt awful.. Had I have known, I would have never even looked at the girl.. What if the same had happen to me while I was in a relationship ? Then it happened again.. And again.. And again.. All with different girls, from different places.. Granted, I never let things escalate to the level that these girls would have desired, yet still.. The feeling of being used is still there..
Now there's a new girl in the picture.. Is it crazy that I can only think of her eyes, her smile, the things she says, and everything.. How soon is too soon so say that you know you've found your perfect match ?
Perhaps I'm obsessive.. Or maybe i'm just pathetically romantic.. Either way, I just need to know that it is possible to let my guard down, and have an actual, full-fledged, hot-blooded romance with a great girl.. A crush is my greatest weakness.. And she's got me good..