Diam-diam

Terdiam aku suka sama dia
Terdiam aku mengagumi dia
Terdiam aku menginginkannya
Terdiam aku mau memilikinya

Cuma dia
Yang bisa memberikan
Sinar surya di pagi hariku

Cuma dia
Yang bisa membuat
Hilang seluruh galau hatiku

Dan cuma dia
Yang bisa bikin
Aku senyum sepanjang hari itu

Cuma dia
Dan bukan orang lain
Yang tiap hari
Menembus bayangan mimpi indahku

Apa mungkin
Ini yang namanya Cinta?

-PB-

Kodaline - All I Want

A question to ponder

Today we are talking about love languages. Have you ever thought about what yours are? How do you show your love? I would definitely say I show mine in actions better than words.

Run Sweat Run

It's time for me to shape up, again. It's time for me to let go of all the excuses I used to make. It's time for me to get fit by running. Together with the major transition is my life is that now, I am a runner. Well, not the type of runner who signs up for the latest fun run event in the community or the one who hits the gym regularly. I consider myself as a runner who is still at the starting line. Eventually, I will make it to the finish line. And when I do, I will still continue running because it does not only make me fit but it also allows me to feel ultimate happiness.

Just Wrong

When I'm sad, u asked me what went wrong,

And asking me to be strong,

How can I be strong,

Living without u is something wrong..

(-̩̩̩-̩̩̩_-̩̩̩-̩̩̩)

Cold September

With every end, there is always a new beginning. It's time to say goodbye to wonderful August 2012 and say hello to a brand new September anyway. Every time something ends, I can't help but look back and recollect all the memories I've had. Now that August has already ended, I try to remember all the beautiful things that happened during the said month..


As I write this post, there is so much happiness in my heart because I know the previous month was undeniably perfect! There were so many events, activities and experiences worth-remembering.

Remember By Harry Nilsson

Darkness of despair

I think the only reason people hold onto memories so tight is because memories are the only things that don't change, even when everybody else does.. 


Looking back on what I said all those years ago, all the hopes and dreams I had, I've come to the conclusion that if having things turn out the way u wanted them to is a measure of a successful life, then some would say I'm a failure.. The important thing is not to be bitter over life's disappointments.. Learn to let go of the past, and recognize that every day won't be sunny.. And when u find yourself lost in the darkness of despair remember, it's only in the black of night that u see the stars, and those stars lead u back home..

A voice of thoughts

Do click on the PLAY button :)

Love..

It's like a double-edged sword

It can place u on the top of the world but

It can also cut u

Deeper than any wound u've ever known

U can live.. Yet.. U are dead

U can see.. Yet.. U are blind

U can talk.. But.. With no voice

U can breathe.. Even when your breath has been taken away

And u can love.. But yet.. U remain with no heart ?

Sometimes, a past relationship can hurt u so bad

U simply want to escape

U find refuge.. Solace.. Someplace u can hide

Run away from the world

But wait..

There's more to this story..

U know, love can be such a strange and funny thing

They say that when u least expect it

Love takes its form in the unlikeliest manner

Have u ever wondered sometimes, could all these be real ?

The happy times.. The sad times.. The time we had to struggle to pull through

When u look into his or her eyes

And he or she looking back at yours

What is it like ? Holding his or her hands for the very first time

Soft skin.. Warm heart.. 

Some believe, no matter how far u go

U will always remember your first love

It is the first cut that is the deepest

Sometimes, the hardest things to do is letting go

Heavy hearts.. Sweet memories..

How did we ended up like this ?

How did perfection become..... Imperfection ?

A memoir, A memories

I just realised, how small I feel when u aren't with me.. How scared I am of everything, when I can't be with u, or when u turn away.. How everything in my life means nothing at all anymore, when I can't share it with u.. How alone I feel when u aren't here to understand my ways, and to love them.. How incomplete I am without u.. Everything is half.. Or nothing.. It's like a big gap has been punched through my heart.. A part is missing.. U took it with u, the biggest part of my heart, and therefore because it's with u, I can not share it with anyone else anymore.. It will always be with u.. Even now u're gone, no one interests me.. There isn't a girl who catches my eye, or interest.. Nothing compares to u.. Once u've had a taste of perfection.. And u aren't even actually perfect.. U have imperfections.. But Subhanallah, how I love all of them..



U are perfect to me.. For me.. With me.. For I am not perfect either.. I am still trying to not mess up.. And to be as good as I can for u.. Because even though when I was with u, it felt like I could never be with anyone else like I am with u, it still felt like I couldn't deserve u.. In a good way.. U are way up there for me.. And I'm always trying to reach.. To touch it. I don't just love u.. I'm with u.. Everything in me is u.. Every memory I have.. I don't know how to love without u.. I don't know if I want to.. Everything is gone.. I wish I could say that I'm better off, but it feels like I won't ever meet anyone like u ever again.. It feels like I won't ever be love again like I did with u.. Passionately.. I didn't know I could feel this empty.. But in a way it's addictive, because it makes me feel that what we had is..... was real.. That it wasn't just something.. The memories are a drug to me and kill me..



How do u live/love when all your life/love has been taken from u ?


A BIG question mark that always been in my mind, till now..