I just realised, how small I feel when u aren't with me.. How scared I am of everything, when I can't be with u, or when u turn away.. How everything in my life means nothing at all anymore, when I can't share it with u.. How alone I feel when u aren't here to understand my ways, and to love them.. How incomplete I am without u.. Everything is half.. Or nothing.. It's like a big gap has been punched through my heart.. A part is missing.. U took it with u, the biggest part of my heart, and therefore because it's with u, I can not share it with anyone else anymore.. It will always be with u.. Even now u're gone, no one interests me.. There isn't a girl who catches my eye, or interest.. Nothing compares to u.. Once u've had a taste of perfection.. And u aren't even actually perfect.. U have imperfections.. But Subhanallah, how I love all of them..
U are perfect to me.. For me.. With me.. For I am not perfect either.. I am still trying to not mess up.. And to be as good as I can for u.. Because even though when I was with u, it felt like I could never be with anyone else like I am with u, it still felt like I couldn't deserve u.. In a good way.. U are way up there for me.. And I'm always trying to reach.. To touch it. I don't just love u.. I'm with u.. Everything in me is u.. Every memory I have.. I don't know how to love without u.. I don't know if I want to.. Everything is gone.. I wish I could say that I'm better off, but it feels like I won't ever meet anyone like u ever again.. It feels like I won't ever be love again like I did with u.. Passionately.. I didn't know I could feel this empty.. But in a way it's addictive, because it makes me feel that what we had is..... was real.. That it wasn't just something.. The memories are a drug to me and kill me..
How do u live/love when all your life/love has been taken from u ?
A BIG question mark that always been in my mind, till now..